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Monday, July 07, 2008]
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HELLOOOOOO
missed me y'all? great this blog's like frigging dead and i don't even have updates from beijing. but heck all i have to say is
WE GOT THE DAMN GOLD! 8.51 PTS THANK YOU VERY MUCH!hahhah yep, so you can be proud of us, we didn't (and we will never) bring down the standard of the arts in IJ kay!
Beijing was a hell lot of fun, esp the TENSION moments with Beatrice and the
secret feasts at night with Agnes C-H-_-NG!, YinYing, Liana and occasionally Phyllis :D loads of fun man, can't wait for the next band trip, or even just school trip :D
nothing much to say right now cuz life's a bit moody. Yesterday was a big day, esp during Youth service which i totally skipped cuz of my breakdown. THANK YOU SO MUCH
Clare and
Tammy for being such wonderful "cousellors" and friends and always being there for me even at my lowest points of life. and yeah, thanks for those who attempted to wait for me outside the stinky toilet which i don't even know how i managed to tolerate for so bloody long and thanks to those who asked if i was okay cuz this really encourages me esp when I'm so confused about all this "true" friendship and all this "love" issues.
yeah, i guess (according to a lot of people) i was PMS-ing quite a bit ytd and i'm really sorry if i affected anyone in anyway. but yeah i'm kinda confused and i dont' really know what to do about certain issues i'm keeping in right now. all this friendship shit and all this i love you, you love me shit is really weighing down on me considering friendship and love are probably the two most important aspects of one's life with the group of friends i have now.
it's like everybody around me has all their fantastic close buddies and they're all going on about how they have so much fun doing so much stupid stuff and how they're so open about each other and all that. i mean, sure i've got close friends but i think i'm still having trouble being convinced that they're really close friends. i mean clare's mentioned about all that feeling thing, that you can sense it if they're really true to you and if they're really willing to be there for you no matter what. i guess it takes time...
but it's been 4/5/1 and 1/2 years. how long do i have to wait? or must i wait at all?
and about love. ah, i shouldn't even be talking about this. i'm really confused. it's like the people around me are all getting into relationships and stuff and i always feel like the third party cuz it always turns out that my close friend is the one getting into relationships. i don't know if i'm jealous or if i'm just hurt that they don't spend as much time with me or what. like i said, i'm really confused.
ah well, at least i got better. thanks again churchies :D
i think i may switch to xanga. i need opinions. maybe i should just get a diary and be done with it. hahaha! okay i think i need to sleep now. i must sleep early cuz of a special day tmr.
procastinating at 6:38 AM
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