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Friday, September 29, 2006]
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Thus endeth the theological lesson for today. I only have 7 words and 4 numbers to say. MATHILDA D'SILVA CAME TO IJTP ON 29 SEP 2006!!!!!!!!!!!! omg...everyone was like AHHHH!!!! MATHILDA!!!!!! AHHH!!! yeah welL...it was so unbelieveable!!! i mean it's like you're so used to seeing sumone on tv and all of a sudden POOF! there she is! amazing..plus, she's an alumni of IJTP. doesn't that just rock your sox off!!! of course there were rumours and everything that she would come and ta daahh!! she came!! and then sum...no wait A LOT of fans RUSHed to get her autograph and my fren actually got it! sigh...i should have been keipo and went to run into the stampede. it was really scary to see them all crowding around her ok...i mean she's just ONE person and practially wat 70 odd people were all around her??!! no oxygen!! ok gr8 now i'm losing my voice and i'm starting to sound like Jade. -.-"'IJ idol was fine. EVerybody except Gail sounded terrible. we all got goosebumps. Gail rocked like anything ok!!! Kylie, Vikki, Shimona, Zoe and I gave her a standing ovation!! she sang sum song from anastasia or sumthing like that from disney but yeah she sounded great. all in tune. and plus, her mike wasn't working when she first came out but she was calm and composed and fixed the prob quickly and continued singing like nothing happened. Thank goodness she won if not i would have passed out. I had a sudden realisation todae and i feel very peaceful inside. except for the little voice in my head that keeps going PSLE IS COMING BEWARE!! BEWARE!! over and over again. I HAVE FRIENDS WHO CARE!!! i'm so happy delighted elated joyful and yeah yeah. :D Listen ppl...i love all of you girls and I'm totally thanking God that i'm graduating with you rocking ORCHIDIANS AND HECK! ALL THE OTHER CLASSES TOO! this year's P6 batch rox!!!! we're crazy mad retard but cool and nutty and woo hoo!!!! we just rock too much...ahhh my egoism is getting to my head. newayss...ALL THE BEST FOR PSLE AND UNTIL THEN...BRACE IT!!
procastinating at 5:05 AM
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Saturday, September 23, 2006]
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learning to accept is as hard as accepting to learn. I'm beginning to understand and accept my purpose on earth. I'm beginning to understand that i was made to endure endless insults, annoying people, being ostracized, being treated like...hang on. i'm not treated in any way because i don't exist! that's right i just remembered! i don't exist at all! so how can people treat others if others didn't exist? No one is realising at all. Even Sarah gave me a weird look and asked me if i was okay on Friday. Hullo?!! My palpable expressions and actions are spread all over my face and you ask me if i'm okay!? I'm sick and tired of serving you people! But can i stop? NO! WANA NOE WHY? CUZ I WAS SENT HERE TO SERVE DAMMIT! I WAS SENT HERE TO SERVE OTHERS AND I'M NOT ALLOWED TO THINK. MY THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS AND WORDS ARE LIMITED BECAUSE OF YOUR SUPPOSED AUTHORITY OVER ME. I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT THAT STUPID DC ANYMORE. I NOE I CAN'T STAND HER. AND I DARESAY I HOPE SHE'S READING THIS NOW CUZ FRIENDS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TREATED AS SERVANTS. YOU DEBORAH CHEW IS TREATING RUI YING LIKE A SERVANT. SHE TAKES YOUR STUPID GEEKY BOTTLE FOR YOU, SHE TRIES TO GET THE BALL FOR YOU WHEN YOU JUST STAND THERE PRETENDING TO BE LOOKING HELPLESS, SHE DOES COUNTLESS THINGS FOR YOU AND YOU TREAT HER LIKE A WHAT? YOU TREAT HER LIKE AN USELESS EMPLOYEE OR MORE LIKE "DEVOTED" SERVANT FOR LIFE. YOU DON'T APPRECIATE HER AT ALL NEITHER ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR HER FRIENDSHIP. YOU JUST TAKE FREAKING ADVANTAGE OF HER AND PRETEND THAT YOU ARE THE ALMIGHTY DC AND NOBODY CAN DEFEAT YOU KIND OF ******* ATTITUDE! YOU NOE WHAT! FORGET IT. I'M NOT GOING TO WASTE MY ENERGY TYPING ABOUT YOU OR WHATSOEVER CRAPPITY CRAP HOLE. I'M GOING TO DELETE THIS BLOG , NO WAIT. I'M NOT GOING TO TOUCH THIS BLOG EVER AGAIN NO WAIT. i DON'T NOE WHAT I'M GONNA DO ABOUT THIS BLOG BUT ALL I NOE IS THAT EVERYONE IS A FREAKING ************* AND THEY PROBABLY WOULDN'T NOTICE THE CHANGE OF MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS THEM CUZ THEY DON'T EVEN NOE MY NAME DAMMIT.
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Saturday, September 16, 2006]
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18 fateful days to our execution...a moment when our heart pumps the last litre of blood...a moment when we weep our final tears...a moment when tragedy shall smite the country...a moment when pain has never felt so hurting. Fate lies in their hands my dear comrades, for when the 10 000 pupils lift their 10 000 pens, the difficulty of the paper shall determine the youth of our future Singapore. now, if you can't decipher the meaning of this, then you are an imbecile vacuum dodo head hauteur nose and worm like hair freak o. (: Boring, useless, depressing and maddening day. Freaking kitchen wouldn't keep silent not even with freaking door closed! so annoying! stupid tuition. got so freaking low for compo that i ACTUALLY put effort in and i got lower than the one i simply did. STUPID. 'ni the biao da neng li bu shi hen hao...' idiot teacher! So freaking boring. all i do now is just study. one day i'm going to come to school looking like sum shipwrecked sailor whose hair got burnt and licked off by sum nutty anteater and wearing torn and tattered clothes with shoes that dun match and socks that don't look like socks at all but look like sum smelly cheese that has one too many holes. i'm actually LOSING HAIR. my mum and dad said that's cuz i'm like growing 'new' hair so i have to 'shed' my old hair but i think that is rubbish. I HAVE STRESS THEREFORE I LOSE HAIR. i'm balding and i'm only 12Ate sweet creamy and lovely durians todae. a bee flew in and Kate and dad were debating on whether the bee was a wasp when my life was at stake! found out that wasps or bees are quite dumb and are attracted to fake flowers. the poor wasp or bee looked like it was so puzzled..wondering where all the pollen nectar and honey had gone to!! :D so now i went into the freaking bathroom and noticed that the drainage cover had HAIR on it. now WHO was the one who kept accusing me of NOT cleaning my hair after my shower? WHO was the one who left HER hair there? huh? huh? huh? it's so annoying! EVerything that i say or do is meaningless! what do you want me to do?! 'your word is my command' issit huh? huh? do you noe how freaking annoying you guys are?! everything you say i MUST do. you dont' give me a freaking choice or even a freaking chance to yell and scream at you guys everything that i've kept in for 12 @!*$#%^ years! I MUST DO WHATEVER ANYONE TELLS ME TO DO. and then me? if i tell you to pass me a tissue and freaking pathetic piece of tissue you grumble grumble grumble and angrily furiously pass me a stupid pathetic piece of tissue when you ask me to pass you the remote pass you the tissue pass you the chilli switch on the fan clean the table set the table pass the newspapers fold the newspapers properly pick up the tissue close the door switch on the comp put down the phone pick up the phone get the door tell me this do this do that! THINK WHAT? I'M YOUR SERVANT FOR LIFE ISSIT? I'VE GOT A FREAKING REASON FOR LIVING HERE OK! AND WHY DO I WANT TO BECOME A VET INSTEAD OF A DOCTOR? BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE I CAN'T STAND HUMANS AND IF I CAN'T STAND THEM THEN WHY ON EARTH SHOULD I HEAL AND TREAT THEM WHEN I HATE THEM SO EVER MUCH?!! ANIMALS DON'T YELL AT YOU ANIMALS DON'T BLAME YOU FOR ANYTHING ANIMALS DON'T ORDER YOU TO DO THINGS ANIMALS DON'T HURT YOUR FEELINGS AND ALL ANIMALS WANT IS YOUR LOV3 AND CARE! AND YOU FREAKING HUMANS? ALL YOU GUYS WANT IS FAME WEALTH POWER AND YOU WANT SERVANTS YOU WANT CONTROL YOU WANT THIS YOU WANT THAT THINK WAT? I DON'T WANT ANYTHING? I DON'T WANT CARE? I DON'T WANT UNDERSTANDING? I'VE GIVEN UP! I'M NOT GOING TO CARE ANYMORE! WHY SHOULD I? IN FACT, WHY AM I WASTING MY PRECIOUS ENERY WHICH OBVIOUSLY NO ONE CARES ABOUT? WHY SHOULD I MOAN AND GROAN AND COMPLAIN WHEN I NOE NOBODY EVER CARES ABOUT READING EVERYTHING I TYPE HERE? WHY AM I EVEN ASKING YOU QUESTIONS THAT I NOE YOU DON'T NOE I EVEN ASK ABT! HOW WONDERFUL IT WOULD BE IF ONLY ANIMALS ROAMED THE WORLD AND NOT ONE SINGLE INTELLEGENT BEAST LIVED. NOT ONE SINGLE HUMAN EXISTED. OH HOW GREAT AND MARVELLOUS THAT WOULD BE. I HATE HUMANS. I DON'T NOE WHY ON EARTH I AM A HUMAN WHEN I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THEM. NOW ALL OF YOU NOE HOW I FEEL. BUT OBVIOUSLY YOU DON'T CARE. OBVIOUSLY YOU'RE PROBABLY LAUGHING YOUR HEAD OFF AND AT SCHOOL YOU'LL SAY...HANG ON..YOU WON'T EVEN READ THIS POST! I'M ONLY DOING THIS TO VENT MY ANGER! I BET YOU GUYS DUN EVEN NOE THAT I EXIST! IF I DIE IN A FIRE IF I WAS MURDERED IF I DROWNED IF I JUST DIED ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU GUYS WOULD PROBABLY DUMP ME SOMEWHERE OR GET RID OF MY PRESENCE FROM THE HOUSE OR WHEREVER I DIED AND THEN WOULDN'T BOTHER ABOUT ME ANYMORE AND YOU GUYS NOE YOU WOULD NEVER ASK WHERE IS KELLY SO WHY SHOULD I EVEN EXIST. I ONLY SAVE THE SUICIDE FOR NEXT TIME CUZ I DUN WANA GO TO HELL. I NOE GOD IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARES ABOUT ME AND THAT IS THE ONLY THING I LIVE ON. I NOE THAT NOBODY GIVES A DAMN ABOUT ME AND I NOE THAT ON EARTH, THE ONLY FRIEND I HAVE IS MY ANIMALS. THAT'S IT. I WON'T BELIEVE YOUR WORDS WHEN YOU SAY OH DUN SAY SAY THAT CUZ WE CARE AND ALL THAT CRAP CUZ I NOE DEEP DOWN YOU'RE ONLY THINKING WHY AM I DOING THIS? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HER! I WOULDN'T CARE IF SHE DIED! IN FACT IT WOULD BE BEST IF SHE DIED TODAE THEN I WOULD HAVE TO ASPHYXIATE BECAUSE OF HER STINKY SCENT. OH I NOE. DON'T WASTE YOUR ENERGY THINKING ABOUT ME CUZ I GO TO SCHOOL TO PERSUE MY DREAM AND THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE S***Y SOCIETY OR PEOPLE FOR IT ONLY HAS THINGS TO DO WITH ANIMALS AND ONLY ANIMALS. THEREFORE I CONCLUDE THAT SINCE NO ONE CARES ABOUT THIS BLOG OR EVEN ME SO SHE WOULDN'T CARE TO COME TO THIS ANYMORE HANG ON NOBODY HAS COME HERE BEFORE! THEY ONLY COME TO TAG AND LEAVE BECAUSE I BEG THEM TO BUT NO MORE. I'M NOT GOING TO RUN AFTER FRIENDS AND WASTE MY EFFOT TRYING TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THEM CUZ I NOE THEY DUN CARE ABOUT ME. EVERY SINGLE HUMAN AROUND WHO LOOKS AT ME NOES I AM AN IDIOT. AND I SAID NOES. NOT THINKS. SOO...THIS BLOG WILL BE DELETED AS IF ANYONE CARES AND I SHALL DO IT AFTER PSLE SO THAT AT LEAST I WILL HAVE A PLACE TO VENT MY ANGER BEFORE I DIE. AND IT SHALL BE OF LITTLE USE TO TRY AND STOP ME CUZ I NOE YOU'RE ONLY DOING IT BECAUSE WELL..I DON'T NOE BUT I NOE YOU ALL HATE ME AND CUT OFF ALL YOUR PERSUADING TALKS OR CRAPPY WORDS OR PETITIONS OR ANY OF THAT SORT OF CRAP.I AM NOT DOING THIS BECAUSE CHERIE DID IT. I'M DOING THIS BECAUSE I JUST REALISED SOMEHOW THAT I AM WASTING MY ENERGY TIME AND EFFORT SO DO NOT ACCUSE ME OF BEING A COPYCAT YOU STUPID FREAK A**.
procastinating at 3:32 AM
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Friday, September 15, 2006]
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IT'S NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!! do you noe HOW MANY PSLE candidates feel like suing the ***??? i dunno HOW MANY!!
today...
"...and the rumbling of the thunder got closer and closer-"KABOOM!!!!! that was the thunder in the real world. then...THERE WAS SOME BL**DY SKIPS IN THE 5TH AND 6TH PASSAGE AND THEY SAID OH SO FREAKING CLEARLY IN THE BEGINNING THAT THEY WOULD REPEAT THE TEXT SKIPPED AFTER THE EXAM AND DID THEY???
NO!!!!!! do you noe how freaking pi**ed i was!???!?! yeesh..imbecile dodo head freaks!then since there was thunder there was obviously rain...so grace, inez, melissa rui sing and i went to go and waste 10 freaking minutes in the stupid rain trying to flag sum stupid taxi! when we got into one, the stupid taxt driver said" bu ke yi! bu ke yi! wu ge ren be ke yi!" and i'm like wat the... so inez was like " aiyah get out! everyone get out!" and then rui sing and i were left in the rain trying to flag a taxi and a few seconds later we got one and thank GOD we got a taxi driver that allowed 5 ppl. then when melissa was in the front and she didn't put on her seat belt so the uncle is like wei, xiao jie ke yi fang ni de.....blah blah blah and we all toked alot of nonsense.
Melissa: ...then go straight
Uncle: zen yang qu straight?! qu straight jiu hui krish!!
Me:Uncle!!!*exasperated tone* bu shi krish!! shi CRASH!!
Uncle:oooo...suo yi wo ke yi jiang bu yao CRASH wo dui ma?
Me grace inez: LOL1!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
Uncle: huh? hen hao xiao ah?
Grace: Ke yi shuo shi bu yao hit wo.
Uncle: huh? bu yao hen wo, wo jiu ai ni lor!
the rest of us: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
me: UNCLE!!! bu shi hen! shi HIT!!!
uNCLE: wo wei shen me yao hit ni?
Me: NVM UNCLE!E!!
Hhahaha....yeah so that was funny. when i came home i just kept studying until 5 .30...gtg now...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
procastinating at 4:54 AM
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Friday, September 08, 2006]
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You have been placed in a juxtaposition and i've been asphyxiated by your scent. You step onto the dais and you cry emphatically. "I am a desecrator!" You endeavour in ruining my life. You plan you scheme you ferret through evils. But no. It takes more than words and ignorance to pierce that needle through my heart. I eschew frippery and hauteur bairns. I do not care for hirelings or your desire to annihilate me for today, I shall annihilate you. I just got caught in the freaking rain, I slipped and fell and broke my leg. i got concussion and landed in the hospital and went into coma. I just woke up. and if you believe me, you are imbecile. :D I went to the studyroom at abt 2 and then at about 4 this big shot came in and announced to the whole room that there was going to be some other reading room because they JUST realised that there was not enough space. -.-'' then we had to sign sumthing for pete knows what and then Anabel and i got out of there and played badminton. then i thought she was possessed. laugh laugh laugh laugh. worse than clarice i tell you. so we then decided to go back to the clubhouse to drink and i drank sum beer which tasted horrible and if you believe me you are brainless and there is space for rent in your vacuum head. :D i drank a longan drink which was not very out of the world then we watched he lan cun at 6 cuz the tv was hogged by a bunch of sissy boys who watched winx club. -.-'' then i went home got caught in the rain slipped fell and broke my leg had concussion and landed in the hospital and went into coma and if you believe me you are predominated by dodo birds. :D hehe... my holiday was not heavenly. nor was it torture. so...i mostly studied, went for tuition and school and played so i suppose it was an average september holiday for a PSLE candidate. yes now the whole world noes my age but do i give a damn? NO! I am NOT looking forward to school i am NOT looking forward to PSLE and i am NOT looking forward to seeing that desecrator! and if you really wwant to know i am currently NOT TOKING TO ANYONE ONLINE AND IF YOU ! YOU STUPID DESECRATOR IS READING THIS THEN I HOPE YOU ARE GRINNING LIKE AN IDIOT FOX AND I HOPE SUMONE SCOOPS OUT YOUR EYEBALL, TONGUE AND TONSILS AND COOK AND FRY THEM AND MAKES YOU SWALLOW THEM AND THEN POURS ACID ALL OVER YOUR FACE LEAVES YOU TIED UP FOR A FEW DAYS MAKES YOU WALK AROUND OUTDOORS TO SHOW THE WHOLE WORLD WHAT YOU REALLY LOOK LIKE INSIDE AND THEN MAY THAT PERSON PLUCK OUT ALL YOUR NAILS SHAVES YOU BALD CHOPS YOU UP CREMATES YOU THEN SOMEHOW CONVERTS THE ASH TO LEAD AND USES YOU TO WRITE STUFF! and if you dun think that's disgusting then you must have done this before.
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Friday, September 01, 2006]
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i'm physically mentally and emotionally exhausted. i've done all i could pierce your heart and you just sniff disdainfully. what do you want me to do? I've cut the shackles that forced us together and you try to weld it back. I've flung sarcasm at you and i realise how freaking thickskin you are. I am an apex in your life. you want us to be inextricably linked. Your ostentatious behaviour makes me puke. My motives are perceptible yet you are ignorant. You are a subordinate to me. Then it hits me.
Ahh..the beauty of BIG words. I did nothing much todae. just went to the reading room to study with Anabel then we played badminton. I'm buffed! nothing much to blog about...just that lately i've got major mood swings. and Teachers' Day was bad. It rained a lot so the roof in the staff room collapsed. so the teachers spent quite a bit of time there and then we only got to spend 15 pathetic minutes with Mrs Tan. sigh...Cynthia was so upset! i mean..she and chuyi spent so many freaking weeks planning for this big day and we spent 15 pathetic minutes with Mrs Tan?!! yeesh. the concert was fine. I SIMPLY LOVED THE PREFECT SKIT. my sister is going on a journey todae, i want to bring her good fortune. 5 birds please. sorry but that is only enough for HALF a bird! hahaha!!! well i'm going to watch my show now...Mrs Tan liked the cow!!!
procastinating at 5:58 AM
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