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Wednesday, June 04, 2008]
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Yo Peace y'all!
i'm proud to announce that i have
finally finished all my holiday hwk
EXCEPT the lit prose and one of zhou ji and the marco polo thingummyit. i am infinitely proud of my hard work, considering i won't have much time during the rest of the "hellidays" to complete anything anyway. i have like zilch time in church camp plus only less than a week before beijing when i come back.
i STILL haven't finished doing my shopping (psst, i saved $93! +D) plus i don't really think that our band is up to Beijing standard yet
whatever that is. i mean it's kinda freaky that there are gonna be
INTERNATIONAL bands competing for the same GOLD that we want. plus i can't stand the fact that there will be Japanese bands there to trash us. i bet they're just gonna come and breeze through the competitiong and stomp on the rest of us. i'll bet even the Thai bands are just as good. this is ridiculous, how are we gonna get the damn gold at this rate? i mean dude, we're the LAST group playing! d'you know how frigging tired the judges will be of Dona Nobis Pacem?! how the heck are we gonna stand out and shine man?
i think i'm gonna cry. how can Dona sound so good on the recording AND have so much tragedy, emotions, pain and yet be so graceful at the same time? it's so beautiful i just feel like breaking down right now and inserting that damn horn solo into Stephanie's horn! and the CORNETS WITH MUTES! how can it sound so free and boundaryless?! how can the song sound so grand, so HOLY?! this really demoralises me. how does it help if i listen to the recordings everyday and the rest of the band doesn't? so only i know what the real thing sounds like but the rest don't? that's bullshit man!
i'm freaking getting goose pimples.
sigh, it's like the real thing is that good. but there is always a better standard. there is never perfection, nor is there ever a best in music. a professional can always aim to beat himself, you, after all are the only person standing in your way to perfection, which on the negative side you will never seem to reach, only if you have the right mindset.
but how the hell do we reach the highest standards ever if we can't even beat the stupid recording?! therein lies the paradox.
merry widow sounds nice on the recordings too. the happy part and the tragic part totally contradict each other and it's really beautitful. i think merry widow is actually the only song that we can actually play without screwing up that badly. i just can't stand the syncopation shit. argh, this is getting really frustrating.
you can actually hear the bloody triplets at the beginning. Lord save us
ah well, on the bright side i won't be going for the exchange with Bendemeer, a school i never really liked ANYWAY. so that's one good part.
moving on to a brighter topic, i'm going for CHURCH CAMP so don't miss me too much. i'm pretty hyped for camp since i'm going ROOM HOPPING! first night i'm sleeping with clare, second night with jez and krystal, third night with tammy and clare, fourth night the whole gang go gatecrash yi ling's hotel +D it's gonna be SO much fun! and yes i will diligently listen to all three competition pieces 3 times over every single day. sigh, i'm gonna be soooo sick of them.
OH! y'know i borrowed three REALLY sadistic books >:D oh i feel gooood. the first one's about this manical homicidal murderer who murders his victims according to the first letter of their surname and the town they live in. so let's say you have a Nick Ng. so this murderer will kill nick at letsay... Ngee Ann City. yeah something like that. it's really cool, i'm still in the middle of it.
then the second one is about this guy who is kinda insane so he kills people and then he hangs them up or FRAMES them up in contorted positions and calls them art. it's called the Death Collector. damn cool but i haven't started on it yet. planning to bring it to camp. +D
and the third one's kinda... bad. it's about this satanic cult who are out to kill for sacrifices for
antichrist reasons and stuff like that. it sounds kinda cool so i'm giving it a shot. it's called (Catholics please don't kill me) Purgatory's Gate.
yep so all these sadistic books are gonna keep me going through the June Hellidays +D i think i'm gonna have fun. plus i have Beatrice's Tenth Circle to help balance the sadist scale.
righty i'm gonna go indulge in Japanese dramas now. so hang me.
procastinating at 12:33 AM
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